Jealousy

It sucks.
Thats all I can say.
I have allllwayyyyss been a jealous person-- yet some people cannot tell because I do hide it.
Theres always someone better out there,
prettier, smarter, more talented than you.
Even the girl that gets the guy you have always wanted can be a killer.
I have always dealt with jealousy issues-- more so in my past, and even now it sometimes creeps up on me.
Not as much with looks, but more with guys I like.
I tend to be the one chasing the guy that I cannot have... therefore I am always jealous of the girl he ends up with. It just sucks.
Its just hard seeing someone you like, or even love... with someone else.
The feeling in your stomach, and the pain that follows is horrible.. and its something I have always dealt with.
Espcially with him... someone I have loved for so long, but got no where with it.
I was SO damn naiive, but I don't regret anything.
I have learned that it is not worth it to go for someone that is already taken... especially if they show you that they are also interested in you.
I guess I learned that guys aren't everything.


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