Death

The concept of death really scares me
And I always end up thinking about it.

It really scares me knowing that one day I will die, and it could be anytime.
I could die from anything-- a disease, an accident... who knows, maybe the world could explode.
But its coming and that is what worries me the most.
Life is too beautiful to waste, and I love every second of it.

It also worries me that one day, I am going to lose a loved one. A family member... maybe even a friend. I really hope it won't come soon... but It is going to happen. I don't know how I would deal with the loss of someone I love, because I have never really lost someone.
I hear about suicides frequently..
especially the ones happening in my home town.
They really upset me, because those kids were so young...
For me its like they are missing one of my greatest fears, and it actually amazes me how someone could overcome the concept of death

But whats going to happen after death?
I think about it from time to time.
will we become nothing?
Whats it like to be.... non existent?
It scares me to death, even though I was non-existent for about.... millions of years
I hope that there is an afterlife.
I hope that one day I will be able to see all my loved ones again.
I hate when this subject comes up in my thoughts
It is just hard to grasp... but I never actually do want to die.
I love life too much. And I am so grateful for everything I have